Chaos and Crisis

New layers of un-consciousness want to be seen and released. They've been working their way to this place for over a week now - building and building. Wow, this IS happening.

I am willing. I am willing. I am willing.

I am in some sort of 'dark night'. I can sleep for 2-3 hours only and am eating very little.

It wants to be released. I WANT it released. It's stuck and has been there a longgggg time. It's deep and old; lifetimes old.

The energies here now are drawing darkness to the surface. This, for me, is very similar to the years of 2002 - 2006. Relentless and overwhelming. Am I crazy? I thought I was through with this. Blah, blah, blah and around again. If feels as if aliens are in my body, pulling every which way. Once again, I can kick and scream and Why ME? I settle my self down for a bit and here it comes sneaking in again. I KNOW I can't control this; that I must surrender and trust.

Where did my intuition go? I've lost direction. I re-connect and I feel that connection. Before I know it I'm disoriented again. YIKES!

It is said that the Universe was created out of chaos. I do know that new beginnings have always seemed to follow times of crisis. I KNOW that in past times surrender and trust were the answer; the only answer. I will get through this but it is intense. There's a war going on in here and it's called Fear. This is the World Cup of Fear.

Brenda

Body of Consciousness

Writing Down My Soul: Day 5

I have connected with my Body of Consciousness. What is that you ask? Well, it is made up of three aspects of I AM - the Energy Body, Living Spirit and Master Intelligence; in other words, Awareness with a capital "A". I have invited these three aspects of Self (which I will call the 'Team', - with a capital "T"!) to come and play with me more fully. (The intention is 7 days. You see, the ego feels it can handle "baby steps".) The Team has responded as follows: Energy Body: "Feel"; Living Spirit: I Am Ready; Master Intelligence: "Let's Do it". I expect that these three romping around together in my consciousness will bring up some interesting stuff, and so, another level of Self as I begin Day 1 of Body of Consciousness.

I AM my I AM Presence. I AM ready to receive.

The ego/child is frightened right NOW.

Be still child. You'll see.

I get it - another one of those "This hurts me more than it's gonna hurt you's" and I say Well then don't do it! (I always wanted to say that.)

Just watch quietly please. I love you.

I didn't expect this reaction so quickly but here it is and maybe I set myself up for this. Pardon me while I go breathe like crazy and move this OUT.

I'm back. I'm needing a walk, morning sunshine, air and bird song right NOW. There are many ways to move energy.

To BE continued....