Writing Down My Soul, Day 11
Body of Consciousness, Day 8
I have felt a very subtle energy build up over the past several days. I'm not always sure while it happens but definitely feel it when it reaches a certain point. The energy body "holds" is the best way I can describe it. So while, I've been watching for signs of changes in the energy body after the full moon/lunar eclipse, they were not apparent to me until today. The only signal I have been receiving is that I've definitely needed my afternoon nap (and they've been more than naps; rather 2 hours sleeps).
When the energy body "holds" I don't feel energy running. This is always a clear signal that it is time to clear, balance and align the energy centers (aka chakras) with Mother Earth, Source Energy and each other. It is a beautiful process and takes as long as I want it to take because I can really get into it with lots of visualization OR I can quickly connect to Mother Earth, open the centers one by one up to Source (aligning along the way) and back down into Mother Earth. Today we took our time and my energy runs clearly as we speak. Mmmm, lovely.
Moral of the story: Pay attention to how the body feels. Do you feel the aliveness of your body? If not, clear your chakras. You can find really good videos on Google and YouTube to show you how.
Until tomorrow,
Brenda
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Bread Crumbs
Writing Down My Soul, Day 10
Body of Consciousness, Day 7
I often awaken and, before coming back to complete consciousnes, I hear the end of downloads from 'night work'. I must write these down right away or they are lost the way that dreams are lost. This morning I heard
..importance of the aires of the lower bodies. And then, laser focus of the 3rd eye.
The spelling of "aires" was very clear to me. I later Googled aires.
Mostly, it is an obsolete spelling of "air". In the French 'aire' refers to rivers. (Hmmm, seems to be a connection there with recent messages.) 'Aire' also refers to a human gene that is expressed in the thymus.
So, Brenda, take your pick. What does it mean to YOU? Just like yesterday with the word 'perspective' that came to me in meditation, I believe these are seeds in my garden. They will sprout when they have matured enough to do so.
I always follow these trails left behind to see where they lead. Sometimes, they do and often they lead to something else and I follow the bread crumbs to the end of that trail. Often there is a reward. Often I am left in tangled confusion. Often, I must leave it alone and know that when I am ready, I'll be led to revelation.
I AM a seeker, you see, and ultimately, I will find.
Manana,
Brenda
Body of Consciousness, Day 7
I often awaken and, before coming back to complete consciousnes, I hear the end of downloads from 'night work'. I must write these down right away or they are lost the way that dreams are lost. This morning I heard
..importance of the aires of the lower bodies. And then, laser focus of the 3rd eye.
The spelling of "aires" was very clear to me. I later Googled aires.
Mostly, it is an obsolete spelling of "air". In the French 'aire' refers to rivers. (Hmmm, seems to be a connection there with recent messages.) 'Aire' also refers to a human gene that is expressed in the thymus.
So, Brenda, take your pick. What does it mean to YOU? Just like yesterday with the word 'perspective' that came to me in meditation, I believe these are seeds in my garden. They will sprout when they have matured enough to do so.
I always follow these trails left behind to see where they lead. Sometimes, they do and often they lead to something else and I follow the bread crumbs to the end of that trail. Often there is a reward. Often I am left in tangled confusion. Often, I must leave it alone and know that when I am ready, I'll be led to revelation.
I AM a seeker, you see, and ultimately, I will find.
Manana,
Brenda
Monday, June 28, 2010
Perspective
Writing Down My Soul, Day 9
Body of Consciousness, Day 6
First of all, I am laughing at my self. I decided to use my journal this morning rather than the keyboard directly. It felt easier. Now, I'm trying to decipher what I wrote!
"Perspective" is the subject of Now.
"'dry spells'. There is no such thing. It is not possible. The Universe is constant movement. Within stillness is movement.
You expect fireworks. Appreciate the process of creation.
Observe. Purely observe and feel the body/heart from This perspective."
And that's all she wrote folks.
I absorb this and insights come but they are tangled.
I Google'perspective'. This is a big word with many definitions (perspectives!). I ask for clarity.
"There is validity in all opinions."
Okay, I believe that. Maybe not enough?
Okey, dokey then. I'm gonna sit with this for awhile to see how it untangles itself. Good grief, why does it have to be so confusing sometimes?
Brenda
Body of Consciousness, Day 6
First of all, I am laughing at my self. I decided to use my journal this morning rather than the keyboard directly. It felt easier. Now, I'm trying to decipher what I wrote!
"Perspective" is the subject of Now.
"'dry spells'. There is no such thing. It is not possible. The Universe is constant movement. Within stillness is movement.
You expect fireworks. Appreciate the process of creation.
Observe. Purely observe and feel the body/heart from This perspective."
And that's all she wrote folks.
I absorb this and insights come but they are tangled.
I Google'perspective'. This is a big word with many definitions (perspectives!). I ask for clarity.
"There is validity in all opinions."
Okay, I believe that. Maybe not enough?
Okey, dokey then. I'm gonna sit with this for awhile to see how it untangles itself. Good grief, why does it have to be so confusing sometimes?
Brenda
Sunday, June 27, 2010
Surrender to Happiness
Writing Down My Soul, Day 8
Body of Consciousness, Day 5
After my day of 'doing nothing' yesterday I slept really well and am rested. I am constantly shown what happens when I surrender. It encourages me. I'm feeling very happy.
Hmmm. What is happiness?
My BFF for the past few weeks has been expressing her simple happiness to me almost every day. She has gone through a very challenging 10 months or so. And then, she surrendered to all that she was resisting. The result? Happiness.
A number of years ago (when I started this awakening) I read whatever I could get my hands on if I thought it would help me to understand what was happening to me. There was a lot of talk about happiness and joy. Joy? What's that? I realized that I not only had no joy, but that I had completely forgotten what it felt like.
Over the years of this work, joy has crept back into my Being. Joy is a HUGE word and a HUGER feeling encompassing happiness and gratitude. Sometimes it comes in the form of simple peace and contentment. Nature is abundantly joyful. Watch a tree sometime as it reaches for and soaks up the sunshine or the rain. Watch a puppy or a small child play and you see that they don't THINK about whether they are are happy - or not. They are pure un-self-awareness and joy. They simply are and they BE.
I notice that when I pray now (I did not know how in the beginning.) I am not asking for God to do or be or whatever. My prayers are expressions of sheer gratitude for the fulness of my contentment. I have never felt less burdened by myself or by the world.
Most folks think that "happiness" is pure luck - something that will descend upon you like fine weather if you're lucky enough. Luck? No. My happiness is the consequence of personal effort. I have to stay on top of my happiness; acknowledging it, smiling to it, singing to it and asking for more of it because I am worth it. If I don't stay on top of my happiness, I know that it will leak out little by little like air from a balloon. I must participate all the time in the creation of my blessings.
All the sorrow and trouble in this world is created by unhappy people. On a personal level, I can sure see how my own unhappiness brought suffering or distress to those around me. On a global level, take a look at Hitler or any of the other unhappy dictators of history. I see the search for happiness and contentment not just self-benefiting, but as a generous gift to the world - one person at a time. Yes, it feels that BIG to me and, after all is said and done, I can only change me.
No Sounds of Music today. Bobby McFaren (Don't Worry, Just Be Happy) comes to mind though. Google it on YouTube if you are so inclined.
Manana,
Brenda
Body of Consciousness, Day 5
After my day of 'doing nothing' yesterday I slept really well and am rested. I am constantly shown what happens when I surrender. It encourages me. I'm feeling very happy.
Hmmm. What is happiness?
My BFF for the past few weeks has been expressing her simple happiness to me almost every day. She has gone through a very challenging 10 months or so. And then, she surrendered to all that she was resisting. The result? Happiness.
A number of years ago (when I started this awakening) I read whatever I could get my hands on if I thought it would help me to understand what was happening to me. There was a lot of talk about happiness and joy. Joy? What's that? I realized that I not only had no joy, but that I had completely forgotten what it felt like.
Over the years of this work, joy has crept back into my Being. Joy is a HUGE word and a HUGER feeling encompassing happiness and gratitude. Sometimes it comes in the form of simple peace and contentment. Nature is abundantly joyful. Watch a tree sometime as it reaches for and soaks up the sunshine or the rain. Watch a puppy or a small child play and you see that they don't THINK about whether they are are happy - or not. They are pure un-self-awareness and joy. They simply are and they BE.
I notice that when I pray now (I did not know how in the beginning.) I am not asking for God to do or be or whatever. My prayers are expressions of sheer gratitude for the fulness of my contentment. I have never felt less burdened by myself or by the world.
Most folks think that "happiness" is pure luck - something that will descend upon you like fine weather if you're lucky enough. Luck? No. My happiness is the consequence of personal effort. I have to stay on top of my happiness; acknowledging it, smiling to it, singing to it and asking for more of it because I am worth it. If I don't stay on top of my happiness, I know that it will leak out little by little like air from a balloon. I must participate all the time in the creation of my blessings.
All the sorrow and trouble in this world is created by unhappy people. On a personal level, I can sure see how my own unhappiness brought suffering or distress to those around me. On a global level, take a look at Hitler or any of the other unhappy dictators of history. I see the search for happiness and contentment not just self-benefiting, but as a generous gift to the world - one person at a time. Yes, it feels that BIG to me and, after all is said and done, I can only change me.
No Sounds of Music today. Bobby McFaren (Don't Worry, Just Be Happy) comes to mind though. Google it on YouTube if you are so inclined.
Manana,
Brenda
Saturday, June 26, 2010
Freedom
Writing Down My Soul, Day 8
Body of Consciousness, Day 5
I AM blessed. Unlike most, I no longer choose to have a regular J O B. My children are grown, independent, self-sufficient people on their own. (I like to believe I had something to do with this.) I am free to eat when hungry, sleep when tired, devote my energy and time to whomever, whatever and pretty much whenever I decide. I have learned that my "needs" are simple and are always (without exception) met. Like all things (past and present), I created all this. I AM grateful.
For the past few days, but today especially, my body feels drained. I forget what it is to sleep more than 5-6 hours a night. The heat waves are fast and intense. I know that I can ask for some relief if I am really wanting it. (Back off guys and let me get some real shuteye!) Not now. I can handle this.
Meditation was short and sweet (literally). My body is telling me to rest (Do nothing). This day I allow the full moon and lunar eclipse energies to do their work. I simply receive.
Manana,
Brenda
P.S. I've posted my Sound of Music for today too. Now, I like this Nelly Furtado tune but never totally connected to the words. This music thing really interests and entertains me.
Body of Consciousness, Day 5
I AM blessed. Unlike most, I no longer choose to have a regular J O B. My children are grown, independent, self-sufficient people on their own. (I like to believe I had something to do with this.) I am free to eat when hungry, sleep when tired, devote my energy and time to whomever, whatever and pretty much whenever I decide. I have learned that my "needs" are simple and are always (without exception) met. Like all things (past and present), I created all this. I AM grateful.
For the past few days, but today especially, my body feels drained. I forget what it is to sleep more than 5-6 hours a night. The heat waves are fast and intense. I know that I can ask for some relief if I am really wanting it. (Back off guys and let me get some real shuteye!) Not now. I can handle this.
Meditation was short and sweet (literally). My body is telling me to rest (Do nothing). This day I allow the full moon and lunar eclipse energies to do their work. I simply receive.
Manana,
Brenda
P.S. I've posted my Sound of Music for today too. Now, I like this Nelly Furtado tune but never totally connected to the words. This music thing really interests and entertains me.
Friday, June 25, 2010
The Sound of Music
Writing Down My Soul, Day 7
Body of Consciousness, Day 4
I start the waking up this day early (Later look and see it is 3:45 a.m. This is not unusual. I close my eyes and hear music. This is also not unusual. Sometimes it's the same song for daaayys. Just can't get it out of my head. Me singing to me. This is a completely new one. I've posted it if you're interested.
"doo doo do doo. doo doo do doo."
The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide
I go through the ritual of connecting - of course, now I also send out the invitation to Body of Consciousness. All are in place, thank you very much!
I AM a mighty oak tree with strong, Divine light-filled roots extending around my Self and reaching down, down into the Mother - back up through the trunk and limbs reaching up, up to Father/Mother. The light flows beautifully back down to the heart. (There's that 'confluence' again. Yummy.)
I AM ready to receive.
The little girl skips up to and knocks at the door.
Can you all come out to play?
Off they go. I release them to do their own thing and I refocus to here/now.
The heart is a boat (Living Spirit) 'tethered', but being pulled by the currents. (Don't you just love all the words and metaphors?) With each strong pull "Stay in your boat".
Feeling schizophrenic as multiple films are projected and roll by. Lots of spinning in the lower energy centers.
Finally, I pull into the station: Fill 'er up, please.
I AM blessed.
A little caveat here, you all.
We're being bombarded (All for Highest Good, of course!) with amazing energy. We signed up for, begged and prayed for this now moment. No sniveling allowed. Stay in your own boat.
Brenda
Body of Consciousness, Day 4
I start the waking up this day early (Later look and see it is 3:45 a.m. This is not unusual. I close my eyes and hear music. This is also not unusual. Sometimes it's the same song for daaayys. Just can't get it out of my head. Me singing to me. This is a completely new one. I've posted it if you're interested.
"doo doo do doo. doo doo do doo."
The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide
I go through the ritual of connecting - of course, now I also send out the invitation to Body of Consciousness. All are in place, thank you very much!
I AM a mighty oak tree with strong, Divine light-filled roots extending around my Self and reaching down, down into the Mother - back up through the trunk and limbs reaching up, up to Father/Mother. The light flows beautifully back down to the heart. (There's that 'confluence' again. Yummy.)
I AM ready to receive.
The little girl skips up to and knocks at the door.
Can you all come out to play?
Off they go. I release them to do their own thing and I refocus to here/now.
The heart is a boat (Living Spirit) 'tethered', but being pulled by the currents. (Don't you just love all the words and metaphors?) With each strong pull "Stay in your boat".
Feeling schizophrenic as multiple films are projected and roll by. Lots of spinning in the lower energy centers.
Finally, I pull into the station: Fill 'er up, please.
I AM blessed.
A little caveat here, you all.
We're being bombarded (All for Highest Good, of course!) with amazing energy. We signed up for, begged and prayed for this now moment. No sniveling allowed. Stay in your own boat.
Brenda
Thursday, June 24, 2010
"It Is Safe Now"
Writing Down My Soul: Day 6
I am in a place called Tiburon. I Wikipedia'd "Tiburon" and found several islands around the world (including one in Haiti!) called Tiburon. Tiburón means "shark" in Spanish. My Tiburon is a part of the Tiburon Peninsula; a landform of the San Francisco Bay Area's Marin County. The Tiburon Peninsula is home of a number of rare and endangered flora species. Tiburon is also the site of ancient Native American rock carvings left by the Coast Miwok indians who lived here for thousands of years. Whether Lt. Juan Manuel de Ayala saw a number of sharks (leopard sharks to be exact!) near where he anchored his ship (the San Carlos) in August 1775, off what is now Angel Island, or whether the tree-covered Tiburon Peninsula looked like a shark, no one seems to know. He named the land Punta del Tiburon, or Shark Point.
That was our history lesson for the day; thank you very much.
I sit and watch the light and colors change as the sun rises and the fog moves over Angel Island and the waters of the San Francisco Bay. I hear fog horns, bird songs and movement of water. I feel a cool breeze on my face and around my body. All of me smiles at the beauty of it All.
Thank you Father/Mother, God/Goddess, All That IS
I am grateful for this new day.
Mother Earth
I thank you from my heart for this beauty and bountiful magnificence.
Thank you for allowing me to share this experience with you.
I AM abundance.
I had a bit of a poem come in to my Awareness just now. "Hidden" seems to be the subject. Guess I'll have to wait for that to be revealed. I AM patient.
I connect and call to my Circle of Light to join me in this NOW. I take "roll call". All are present and accounted for. I AM grateful for the Company of Heaven. I AM, I AM, I AM ready to receive.
At the end of meditation this day I feel/see a girl child running freely and joyously. She is maybe 4-5 years old with long, shiny, light brown ringlets blowing wildly around her head. This is the shiniest little human being with blue eyes you ever did see. I smile as I watch her romping and rolling through the wildflowers. My heart opens wide. I ask her Where have you been?
"Hiding."
So, you're not hiding any more?
"No, It's safe now."
Yes, it IS safe now.
Brenda
I am in a place called Tiburon. I Wikipedia'd "Tiburon" and found several islands around the world (including one in Haiti!) called Tiburon. Tiburón means "shark" in Spanish. My Tiburon is a part of the Tiburon Peninsula; a landform of the San Francisco Bay Area's Marin County. The Tiburon Peninsula is home of a number of rare and endangered flora species. Tiburon is also the site of ancient Native American rock carvings left by the Coast Miwok indians who lived here for thousands of years. Whether Lt. Juan Manuel de Ayala saw a number of sharks (leopard sharks to be exact!) near where he anchored his ship (the San Carlos) in August 1775, off what is now Angel Island, or whether the tree-covered Tiburon Peninsula looked like a shark, no one seems to know. He named the land Punta del Tiburon, or Shark Point.
That was our history lesson for the day; thank you very much.
I sit and watch the light and colors change as the sun rises and the fog moves over Angel Island and the waters of the San Francisco Bay. I hear fog horns, bird songs and movement of water. I feel a cool breeze on my face and around my body. All of me smiles at the beauty of it All.
Thank you Father/Mother, God/Goddess, All That IS
I am grateful for this new day.
Mother Earth
I thank you from my heart for this beauty and bountiful magnificence.
Thank you for allowing me to share this experience with you.
I AM abundance.
I had a bit of a poem come in to my Awareness just now. "Hidden" seems to be the subject. Guess I'll have to wait for that to be revealed. I AM patient.
I connect and call to my Circle of Light to join me in this NOW. I take "roll call". All are present and accounted for. I AM grateful for the Company of Heaven. I AM, I AM, I AM ready to receive.
At the end of meditation this day I feel/see a girl child running freely and joyously. She is maybe 4-5 years old with long, shiny, light brown ringlets blowing wildly around her head. This is the shiniest little human being with blue eyes you ever did see. I smile as I watch her romping and rolling through the wildflowers. My heart opens wide. I ask her Where have you been?
"Hiding."
So, you're not hiding any more?
"No, It's safe now."
Yes, it IS safe now.
Brenda
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
The Insight
Writing Down My Soul, Day 6
Body of Consciousness, Day 2
If you recall, yesterday was the first day of meditation after inviting Body of Consciousness to play with me. It was a bit of a challenging day energetically. The physical body once again experienced what I call "hot waves". Also, that "roiling" energy throughout the body and mind. These energies always tell me that I'm in a release time. I have to BE with these energies, (feel them - YIKES!) and breathe and breathe deeply some more in order to release. This, by the way, gives the mind something to do too. I've found that understanding is over rated. I don't need to KNOW what is being released. It is, quite simply, ready to go. At the end of all this, I feel an emptiness of sorts. I ask for and picture Golden Light of Father/Mother God's Perfection entering through the crown and filling my body. This light is intelligent and knows where to go to fill the void(s) left behind from the release(s) and So It Is. And, this my friends, IS THE WORK.
Meditation today was experiential. Get your own. LOL!
The Insight came during that meditation - no words, just Knowing. The three aspects of Body Consciousness (Energy Body, Living Spirit & Master Intelligence) had previously been coming into my Awareness. With my personal invitation to them to "Come on in and play with me", they hit the ground running. They needed more space than was available. This triggers all the bodies to work together to release whatever is ready to be released - from whatever lifetime. Me, I just need to get out of the way. Surrender and allow. I'm always guided as to what I can do to assist (eat, breathe, sleep, walk - whatever). My job is to follow that guidance and the sooner I do that, the sooner that space is created.
At the end of meditation today I was in a mountain valley. Three rivers came together in the center of that valley. They had traveled a long and challenging distance in order to re-unite. These rivers were happiness beyond happiness. I stood there in the center of that confluence quietly drowning in 3 rivers of joy at the same time.
Aha! another Insight. As I wrote the word 'confluence', it was like, Where did that word come from? I don't remember knowing that word. I looked it up and indeed it was the perfect expression of where I was.
WikiDictionary states: Confluence: In geography, describes the meeting of two or more bodies of water. It refers to the point where a tributary joins a more major river, called the mainstem. It indicates the source (river or stream)—headwaters where two or more streams meet to become One.
Do you think there's a message in there somewhere?
Brenda
Body of Consciousness, Day 2
If you recall, yesterday was the first day of meditation after inviting Body of Consciousness to play with me. It was a bit of a challenging day energetically. The physical body once again experienced what I call "hot waves". Also, that "roiling" energy throughout the body and mind. These energies always tell me that I'm in a release time. I have to BE with these energies, (feel them - YIKES!) and breathe and breathe deeply some more in order to release. This, by the way, gives the mind something to do too. I've found that understanding is over rated. I don't need to KNOW what is being released. It is, quite simply, ready to go. At the end of all this, I feel an emptiness of sorts. I ask for and picture Golden Light of Father/Mother God's Perfection entering through the crown and filling my body. This light is intelligent and knows where to go to fill the void(s) left behind from the release(s) and So It Is. And, this my friends, IS THE WORK.
Meditation today was experiential. Get your own. LOL!
The Insight came during that meditation - no words, just Knowing. The three aspects of Body Consciousness (Energy Body, Living Spirit & Master Intelligence) had previously been coming into my Awareness. With my personal invitation to them to "Come on in and play with me", they hit the ground running. They needed more space than was available. This triggers all the bodies to work together to release whatever is ready to be released - from whatever lifetime. Me, I just need to get out of the way. Surrender and allow. I'm always guided as to what I can do to assist (eat, breathe, sleep, walk - whatever). My job is to follow that guidance and the sooner I do that, the sooner that space is created.
At the end of meditation today I was in a mountain valley. Three rivers came together in the center of that valley. They had traveled a long and challenging distance in order to re-unite. These rivers were happiness beyond happiness. I stood there in the center of that confluence quietly drowning in 3 rivers of joy at the same time.
Aha! another Insight. As I wrote the word 'confluence', it was like, Where did that word come from? I don't remember knowing that word. I looked it up and indeed it was the perfect expression of where I was.
WikiDictionary states: Confluence: In geography, describes the meeting of two or more bodies of water. It refers to the point where a tributary joins a more major river, called the mainstem. It indicates the source (river or stream)—headwaters where two or more streams meet to become One.
Do you think there's a message in there somewhere?
Brenda
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
Body of Consciousness
Writing Down My Soul: Day 5
I have connected with my Body of Consciousness. What is that you ask? Well, it is made up of three aspects of I AM - the Energy Body, Living Spirit and Master Intelligence; in other words, Awareness with a capital "A". I have invited these three aspects of Self (which I will call the 'Team', - with a capital "T"!) to come and play with me more fully. (The intention is 7 days. You see, the ego feels it can handle "baby steps".) The Team has responded as follows: Energy Body: "Feel"; Living Spirit: I Am Ready; Master Intelligence: "Let's Do it". I expect that these three romping around together in my consciousness will bring up some interesting stuff, and so, another level of Self as I begin Day 1 of Body of Consciousness.
I AM my I AM Presence. I AM ready to receive.
The ego/child is frightened right NOW.
Be still child. You'll see.
I get it - another one of those "This hurts me more than it's gonna hurt you's" and I say Well then don't do it! (I always wanted to say that.)
Just watch quietly please. I love you.
I didn't expect this reaction so quickly but here it is and maybe I set myself up for this. Pardon me while I go breathe like crazy and move this OUT.
I'm back. I'm needing a walk, morning sunshine, air and bird song right NOW. There are many ways to move energy.
To BE continued....
I have connected with my Body of Consciousness. What is that you ask? Well, it is made up of three aspects of I AM - the Energy Body, Living Spirit and Master Intelligence; in other words, Awareness with a capital "A". I have invited these three aspects of Self (which I will call the 'Team', - with a capital "T"!) to come and play with me more fully. (The intention is 7 days. You see, the ego feels it can handle "baby steps".) The Team has responded as follows: Energy Body: "Feel"; Living Spirit: I Am Ready; Master Intelligence: "Let's Do it". I expect that these three romping around together in my consciousness will bring up some interesting stuff, and so, another level of Self as I begin Day 1 of Body of Consciousness.
I AM my I AM Presence. I AM ready to receive.
The ego/child is frightened right NOW.
Be still child. You'll see.
I get it - another one of those "This hurts me more than it's gonna hurt you's" and I say Well then don't do it! (I always wanted to say that.)
Just watch quietly please. I love you.
I didn't expect this reaction so quickly but here it is and maybe I set myself up for this. Pardon me while I go breathe like crazy and move this OUT.
I'm back. I'm needing a walk, morning sunshine, air and bird song right NOW. There are many ways to move energy.
To BE continued....
Monday, June 21, 2010
The Experience
Writing Down My Soul: Day 4
Dreams of talking with my ego about fear. I used the analogy of horror films in this talk with ego (which I haven't watched since "Halloween" and made the decision not to scare my Self any more!). "Experience the fear and you will see that it is not real."
I AM, I AM, I AM. I AM ready to receive.
I call to My Circle of Light - all those Beings of this Soul's Highest Good, and ask you to join me in in this Now Moment. I AM open to your light and love.
Connecting with the breath, I am feeling challenged to allow the energy to flow without the mind interference.
Focused Breathing.
Heart energy becomes huge then moving down to the solar plexus front and back filling, swirling and moving down, down and out the bottoms of my feet, down down. Breathe, breathe and the breath becomes shallow with long spaces between in/out.
"Experiential" and I KNOW that is what this is about.
I'm sitting in a dentist's chair with the 'laughing gas' mask thingy over my nose (my favorite part of going to the dentist!) and I'm at that stage of the gas when the head goes waaaah, waaaah, waaaah.
I AM Awareness watching awareness and the multi-dimensional qualities of the experiences of the mind, body, emotions, feelings and oh, so much more. We all come together in Trust and surrender. Soooo much is going on right Now. I am every where all at once filled will light and color. Not just any color - purples, violets, golds and whites whiter than white as the body breathes itself.
I ask What is this about? What do you want to share?
"The experience. The Oneness."
I see and feel from high above this body, through the middle of the body, out and down far below the body, a pillar of white light. I feel more than grounded by this Light.
I AM grateful.
Dreams of talking with my ego about fear. I used the analogy of horror films in this talk with ego (which I haven't watched since "Halloween" and made the decision not to scare my Self any more!). "Experience the fear and you will see that it is not real."
I AM, I AM, I AM. I AM ready to receive.
I call to My Circle of Light - all those Beings of this Soul's Highest Good, and ask you to join me in in this Now Moment. I AM open to your light and love.
Connecting with the breath, I am feeling challenged to allow the energy to flow without the mind interference.
Focused Breathing.
Heart energy becomes huge then moving down to the solar plexus front and back filling, swirling and moving down, down and out the bottoms of my feet, down down. Breathe, breathe and the breath becomes shallow with long spaces between in/out.
"Experiential" and I KNOW that is what this is about.
I'm sitting in a dentist's chair with the 'laughing gas' mask thingy over my nose (my favorite part of going to the dentist!) and I'm at that stage of the gas when the head goes waaaah, waaaah, waaaah.
I AM Awareness watching awareness and the multi-dimensional qualities of the experiences of the mind, body, emotions, feelings and oh, so much more. We all come together in Trust and surrender. Soooo much is going on right Now. I am every where all at once filled will light and color. Not just any color - purples, violets, golds and whites whiter than white as the body breathes itself.
I ask What is this about? What do you want to share?
"The experience. The Oneness."
I see and feel from high above this body, through the middle of the body, out and down far below the body, a pillar of white light. I feel more than grounded by this Light.
I AM grateful.
Sunday, June 20, 2010
The "Brat"
Writing Down My Soul - Day 3
As preface, and just to let you know: This "meditation" was about 2 hours long. A lot goes on during this and I am not aware of "time". This is a perfect example of, when doing something new or different, the ego acts out. I am, by the way, interested in hearing and chatting about your experiences in this regard!
So here we go:
The ego/personality is kicking and screaming today. What a brat! I tell it to take a time-out and it does for a minute and then comes sneaking back into the room of my consciousness. I ignore it by coming back to the breath. I AM, I AM, I AM.
I watch and try not to grasp or label. Just BE. My Soul does not always speak with words - and even then, very few and profound. Colors, energy flows here and there. I watch and feel, allowing as my Self directs ''No grasping please".
I am asked to put down the journal and use the keyboard. I do and reconnect.
"Shhhsh Child. You are editing. Release and breathe. I AM here". I feel pressure in my forehead and heart.
Wow, this is a challenge. Maybe adding the blog thing to the 30 days thing wasn't such a good idea after all. (ego!) And now you've added the keyboard? Are you nuts?
Watching, watching, watching.
You're just messing up your beautiful meditations with this crap. (Guess whoo-ooo?)
"The breath. Teach that child surrender by example. Simply say me me. Recieve."
I'm carrlying a peace sign down a wide boulevard (with tall buildings on each side) filled to capacity with people also carrying signs. Their signs say "Love". It could be San Francisco, LA, New York - any big City in the world. Isn't this what we all wish for?
As preface, and just to let you know: This "meditation" was about 2 hours long. A lot goes on during this and I am not aware of "time". This is a perfect example of, when doing something new or different, the ego acts out. I am, by the way, interested in hearing and chatting about your experiences in this regard!
So here we go:
The ego/personality is kicking and screaming today. What a brat! I tell it to take a time-out and it does for a minute and then comes sneaking back into the room of my consciousness. I ignore it by coming back to the breath. I AM, I AM, I AM.
I watch and try not to grasp or label. Just BE. My Soul does not always speak with words - and even then, very few and profound. Colors, energy flows here and there. I watch and feel, allowing as my Self directs ''No grasping please".
I am asked to put down the journal and use the keyboard. I do and reconnect.
"Shhhsh Child. You are editing. Release and breathe. I AM here". I feel pressure in my forehead and heart.
Wow, this is a challenge. Maybe adding the blog thing to the 30 days thing wasn't such a good idea after all. (ego!) And now you've added the keyboard? Are you nuts?
Watching, watching, watching.
You're just messing up your beautiful meditations with this crap. (Guess whoo-ooo?)
"The breath. Teach that child surrender by example. Simply say me me. Recieve."
I'm carrlying a peace sign down a wide boulevard (with tall buildings on each side) filled to capacity with people also carrying signs. Their signs say "Love". It could be San Francisco, LA, New York - any big City in the world. Isn't this what we all wish for?
Saturday, June 19, 2010
Meet "Tony"
Ok, here we go. Day 2 of 30. Now, please understand that what you get here is what I (emphasis on I) get. No rhyme or reason to it.
I sometimes (in fact, almost always lately!) wake up with words in my head. Yesterday it was "body elemental". OK.... I Google (Don't you just l o v e Google?) 'body elemental' and find out we all have one. Google it if you're interested. So the fact that I have this incredible Being that has been with me since Forever totally resonates.
From my journal....
I awoke and officially met "Tony" - a small in size (it seems) Being that has been with me "for eons". I had asked with great love (only yesterday) that my "body elemental" show itself and communicate with me. Well.. Ask & it is given.
I asked, What shall I call you?
"Tony".
Are you kidding me?
"Yes. - And No", said with giggles, for this is a very playful energy.
Well all right then. Tony it is. Pleased to meetcha!
Off and on of late there has been energy of pain and stuckness (Don't you love new made-up words?) in the left (masculine) of my body. I asked Tony to help release it and immediately felt a shift of consciousness to the left. Tony sits on my left shoulder (I told you he's small!). "I" got out of the way and Tony assisted/moved energy out and down. I felt/saw garbage being hauled to a landfill, composted and returned via large trucks. What was in the trucks? L O V E.
Thank you, Dear Tony.
My Pleasure
And finally,
Time for the Blog. Ok, Barb!
Manana,
Brenda
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