Writing Down My Soul, Day 11
Body of Consciousness, Day 8
I have felt a very subtle energy build up over the past several days. I'm not always sure while it happens but definitely feel it when it reaches a certain point. The energy body "holds" is the best way I can describe it. So while, I've been watching for signs of changes in the energy body after the full moon/lunar eclipse, they were not apparent to me until today. The only signal I have been receiving is that I've definitely needed my afternoon nap (and they've been more than naps; rather 2 hours sleeps).
When the energy body "holds" I don't feel energy running. This is always a clear signal that it is time to clear, balance and align the energy centers (aka chakras) with Mother Earth, Source Energy and each other. It is a beautiful process and takes as long as I want it to take because I can really get into it with lots of visualization OR I can quickly connect to Mother Earth, open the centers one by one up to Source (aligning along the way) and back down into Mother Earth. Today we took our time and my energy runs clearly as we speak. Mmmm, lovely.
Moral of the story: Pay attention to how the body feels. Do you feel the aliveness of your body? If not, clear your chakras. You can find really good videos on Google and YouTube to show you how.
Until tomorrow,
Brenda
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Bread Crumbs
Writing Down My Soul, Day 10
Body of Consciousness, Day 7
I often awaken and, before coming back to complete consciousnes, I hear the end of downloads from 'night work'. I must write these down right away or they are lost the way that dreams are lost. This morning I heard
..importance of the aires of the lower bodies. And then, laser focus of the 3rd eye.
The spelling of "aires" was very clear to me. I later Googled aires.
Mostly, it is an obsolete spelling of "air". In the French 'aire' refers to rivers. (Hmmm, seems to be a connection there with recent messages.) 'Aire' also refers to a human gene that is expressed in the thymus.
So, Brenda, take your pick. What does it mean to YOU? Just like yesterday with the word 'perspective' that came to me in meditation, I believe these are seeds in my garden. They will sprout when they have matured enough to do so.
I always follow these trails left behind to see where they lead. Sometimes, they do and often they lead to something else and I follow the bread crumbs to the end of that trail. Often there is a reward. Often I am left in tangled confusion. Often, I must leave it alone and know that when I am ready, I'll be led to revelation.
I AM a seeker, you see, and ultimately, I will find.
Manana,
Brenda
Body of Consciousness, Day 7
I often awaken and, before coming back to complete consciousnes, I hear the end of downloads from 'night work'. I must write these down right away or they are lost the way that dreams are lost. This morning I heard
..importance of the aires of the lower bodies. And then, laser focus of the 3rd eye.
The spelling of "aires" was very clear to me. I later Googled aires.
Mostly, it is an obsolete spelling of "air". In the French 'aire' refers to rivers. (Hmmm, seems to be a connection there with recent messages.) 'Aire' also refers to a human gene that is expressed in the thymus.
So, Brenda, take your pick. What does it mean to YOU? Just like yesterday with the word 'perspective' that came to me in meditation, I believe these are seeds in my garden. They will sprout when they have matured enough to do so.
I always follow these trails left behind to see where they lead. Sometimes, they do and often they lead to something else and I follow the bread crumbs to the end of that trail. Often there is a reward. Often I am left in tangled confusion. Often, I must leave it alone and know that when I am ready, I'll be led to revelation.
I AM a seeker, you see, and ultimately, I will find.
Manana,
Brenda
Monday, June 28, 2010
Perspective
Writing Down My Soul, Day 9
Body of Consciousness, Day 6
First of all, I am laughing at my self. I decided to use my journal this morning rather than the keyboard directly. It felt easier. Now, I'm trying to decipher what I wrote!
"Perspective" is the subject of Now.
"'dry spells'. There is no such thing. It is not possible. The Universe is constant movement. Within stillness is movement.
You expect fireworks. Appreciate the process of creation.
Observe. Purely observe and feel the body/heart from This perspective."
And that's all she wrote folks.
I absorb this and insights come but they are tangled.
I Google'perspective'. This is a big word with many definitions (perspectives!). I ask for clarity.
"There is validity in all opinions."
Okay, I believe that. Maybe not enough?
Okey, dokey then. I'm gonna sit with this for awhile to see how it untangles itself. Good grief, why does it have to be so confusing sometimes?
Brenda
Body of Consciousness, Day 6
First of all, I am laughing at my self. I decided to use my journal this morning rather than the keyboard directly. It felt easier. Now, I'm trying to decipher what I wrote!
"Perspective" is the subject of Now.
"'dry spells'. There is no such thing. It is not possible. The Universe is constant movement. Within stillness is movement.
You expect fireworks. Appreciate the process of creation.
Observe. Purely observe and feel the body/heart from This perspective."
And that's all she wrote folks.
I absorb this and insights come but they are tangled.
I Google'perspective'. This is a big word with many definitions (perspectives!). I ask for clarity.
"There is validity in all opinions."
Okay, I believe that. Maybe not enough?
Okey, dokey then. I'm gonna sit with this for awhile to see how it untangles itself. Good grief, why does it have to be so confusing sometimes?
Brenda
Sunday, June 27, 2010
Surrender to Happiness
Writing Down My Soul, Day 8
Body of Consciousness, Day 5
After my day of 'doing nothing' yesterday I slept really well and am rested. I am constantly shown what happens when I surrender. It encourages me. I'm feeling very happy.
Hmmm. What is happiness?
My BFF for the past few weeks has been expressing her simple happiness to me almost every day. She has gone through a very challenging 10 months or so. And then, she surrendered to all that she was resisting. The result? Happiness.
A number of years ago (when I started this awakening) I read whatever I could get my hands on if I thought it would help me to understand what was happening to me. There was a lot of talk about happiness and joy. Joy? What's that? I realized that I not only had no joy, but that I had completely forgotten what it felt like.
Over the years of this work, joy has crept back into my Being. Joy is a HUGE word and a HUGER feeling encompassing happiness and gratitude. Sometimes it comes in the form of simple peace and contentment. Nature is abundantly joyful. Watch a tree sometime as it reaches for and soaks up the sunshine or the rain. Watch a puppy or a small child play and you see that they don't THINK about whether they are are happy - or not. They are pure un-self-awareness and joy. They simply are and they BE.
I notice that when I pray now (I did not know how in the beginning.) I am not asking for God to do or be or whatever. My prayers are expressions of sheer gratitude for the fulness of my contentment. I have never felt less burdened by myself or by the world.
Most folks think that "happiness" is pure luck - something that will descend upon you like fine weather if you're lucky enough. Luck? No. My happiness is the consequence of personal effort. I have to stay on top of my happiness; acknowledging it, smiling to it, singing to it and asking for more of it because I am worth it. If I don't stay on top of my happiness, I know that it will leak out little by little like air from a balloon. I must participate all the time in the creation of my blessings.
All the sorrow and trouble in this world is created by unhappy people. On a personal level, I can sure see how my own unhappiness brought suffering or distress to those around me. On a global level, take a look at Hitler or any of the other unhappy dictators of history. I see the search for happiness and contentment not just self-benefiting, but as a generous gift to the world - one person at a time. Yes, it feels that BIG to me and, after all is said and done, I can only change me.
No Sounds of Music today. Bobby McFaren (Don't Worry, Just Be Happy) comes to mind though. Google it on YouTube if you are so inclined.
Manana,
Brenda
Body of Consciousness, Day 5
After my day of 'doing nothing' yesterday I slept really well and am rested. I am constantly shown what happens when I surrender. It encourages me. I'm feeling very happy.
Hmmm. What is happiness?
My BFF for the past few weeks has been expressing her simple happiness to me almost every day. She has gone through a very challenging 10 months or so. And then, she surrendered to all that she was resisting. The result? Happiness.
A number of years ago (when I started this awakening) I read whatever I could get my hands on if I thought it would help me to understand what was happening to me. There was a lot of talk about happiness and joy. Joy? What's that? I realized that I not only had no joy, but that I had completely forgotten what it felt like.
Over the years of this work, joy has crept back into my Being. Joy is a HUGE word and a HUGER feeling encompassing happiness and gratitude. Sometimes it comes in the form of simple peace and contentment. Nature is abundantly joyful. Watch a tree sometime as it reaches for and soaks up the sunshine or the rain. Watch a puppy or a small child play and you see that they don't THINK about whether they are are happy - or not. They are pure un-self-awareness and joy. They simply are and they BE.
I notice that when I pray now (I did not know how in the beginning.) I am not asking for God to do or be or whatever. My prayers are expressions of sheer gratitude for the fulness of my contentment. I have never felt less burdened by myself or by the world.
Most folks think that "happiness" is pure luck - something that will descend upon you like fine weather if you're lucky enough. Luck? No. My happiness is the consequence of personal effort. I have to stay on top of my happiness; acknowledging it, smiling to it, singing to it and asking for more of it because I am worth it. If I don't stay on top of my happiness, I know that it will leak out little by little like air from a balloon. I must participate all the time in the creation of my blessings.
All the sorrow and trouble in this world is created by unhappy people. On a personal level, I can sure see how my own unhappiness brought suffering or distress to those around me. On a global level, take a look at Hitler or any of the other unhappy dictators of history. I see the search for happiness and contentment not just self-benefiting, but as a generous gift to the world - one person at a time. Yes, it feels that BIG to me and, after all is said and done, I can only change me.
No Sounds of Music today. Bobby McFaren (Don't Worry, Just Be Happy) comes to mind though. Google it on YouTube if you are so inclined.
Manana,
Brenda
Saturday, June 26, 2010
Freedom
Writing Down My Soul, Day 8
Body of Consciousness, Day 5
I AM blessed. Unlike most, I no longer choose to have a regular J O B. My children are grown, independent, self-sufficient people on their own. (I like to believe I had something to do with this.) I am free to eat when hungry, sleep when tired, devote my energy and time to whomever, whatever and pretty much whenever I decide. I have learned that my "needs" are simple and are always (without exception) met. Like all things (past and present), I created all this. I AM grateful.
For the past few days, but today especially, my body feels drained. I forget what it is to sleep more than 5-6 hours a night. The heat waves are fast and intense. I know that I can ask for some relief if I am really wanting it. (Back off guys and let me get some real shuteye!) Not now. I can handle this.
Meditation was short and sweet (literally). My body is telling me to rest (Do nothing). This day I allow the full moon and lunar eclipse energies to do their work. I simply receive.
Manana,
Brenda
P.S. I've posted my Sound of Music for today too. Now, I like this Nelly Furtado tune but never totally connected to the words. This music thing really interests and entertains me.
Body of Consciousness, Day 5
I AM blessed. Unlike most, I no longer choose to have a regular J O B. My children are grown, independent, self-sufficient people on their own. (I like to believe I had something to do with this.) I am free to eat when hungry, sleep when tired, devote my energy and time to whomever, whatever and pretty much whenever I decide. I have learned that my "needs" are simple and are always (without exception) met. Like all things (past and present), I created all this. I AM grateful.
For the past few days, but today especially, my body feels drained. I forget what it is to sleep more than 5-6 hours a night. The heat waves are fast and intense. I know that I can ask for some relief if I am really wanting it. (Back off guys and let me get some real shuteye!) Not now. I can handle this.
Meditation was short and sweet (literally). My body is telling me to rest (Do nothing). This day I allow the full moon and lunar eclipse energies to do their work. I simply receive.
Manana,
Brenda
P.S. I've posted my Sound of Music for today too. Now, I like this Nelly Furtado tune but never totally connected to the words. This music thing really interests and entertains me.
Friday, June 25, 2010
The Sound of Music
Writing Down My Soul, Day 7
Body of Consciousness, Day 4
I start the waking up this day early (Later look and see it is 3:45 a.m. This is not unusual. I close my eyes and hear music. This is also not unusual. Sometimes it's the same song for daaayys. Just can't get it out of my head. Me singing to me. This is a completely new one. I've posted it if you're interested.
"doo doo do doo. doo doo do doo."
The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide
I go through the ritual of connecting - of course, now I also send out the invitation to Body of Consciousness. All are in place, thank you very much!
I AM a mighty oak tree with strong, Divine light-filled roots extending around my Self and reaching down, down into the Mother - back up through the trunk and limbs reaching up, up to Father/Mother. The light flows beautifully back down to the heart. (There's that 'confluence' again. Yummy.)
I AM ready to receive.
The little girl skips up to and knocks at the door.
Can you all come out to play?
Off they go. I release them to do their own thing and I refocus to here/now.
The heart is a boat (Living Spirit) 'tethered', but being pulled by the currents. (Don't you just love all the words and metaphors?) With each strong pull "Stay in your boat".
Feeling schizophrenic as multiple films are projected and roll by. Lots of spinning in the lower energy centers.
Finally, I pull into the station: Fill 'er up, please.
I AM blessed.
A little caveat here, you all.
We're being bombarded (All for Highest Good, of course!) with amazing energy. We signed up for, begged and prayed for this now moment. No sniveling allowed. Stay in your own boat.
Brenda
Body of Consciousness, Day 4
I start the waking up this day early (Later look and see it is 3:45 a.m. This is not unusual. I close my eyes and hear music. This is also not unusual. Sometimes it's the same song for daaayys. Just can't get it out of my head. Me singing to me. This is a completely new one. I've posted it if you're interested.
"doo doo do doo. doo doo do doo."
The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide
I go through the ritual of connecting - of course, now I also send out the invitation to Body of Consciousness. All are in place, thank you very much!
I AM a mighty oak tree with strong, Divine light-filled roots extending around my Self and reaching down, down into the Mother - back up through the trunk and limbs reaching up, up to Father/Mother. The light flows beautifully back down to the heart. (There's that 'confluence' again. Yummy.)
I AM ready to receive.
The little girl skips up to and knocks at the door.
Can you all come out to play?
Off they go. I release them to do their own thing and I refocus to here/now.
The heart is a boat (Living Spirit) 'tethered', but being pulled by the currents. (Don't you just love all the words and metaphors?) With each strong pull "Stay in your boat".
Feeling schizophrenic as multiple films are projected and roll by. Lots of spinning in the lower energy centers.
Finally, I pull into the station: Fill 'er up, please.
I AM blessed.
A little caveat here, you all.
We're being bombarded (All for Highest Good, of course!) with amazing energy. We signed up for, begged and prayed for this now moment. No sniveling allowed. Stay in your own boat.
Brenda
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